Back to drop some ink....
Change a few jobs and end up back to square one.
Previous 2 years and 4 months was the best years that I have work in, though there is some issues and blocks but at least I have make it through. And meet some good people along the way and have make us getting closer more gathering together enjoy the life.
after the dismiss it seems everyone is getting somewhere or any where but me still like an idiot stuck in the same place. Sometimes I wonder should I jump out from the box that I have been in few years, cause it really felt that it can't anywhere further in term of experience and salary wise too.
Is like in the jungle of lions and lionesses whereby everyone want a piece of glory, being in the sandwich pack is hard to survive and please everyone else. Really do miss those days that not much of drama and process in between, restriction really can causes a lot problems!!!
How could I wish time machine is invented, so I can re-choose again...
Monday, November 16, 2015
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
Current situation
Never thought that I have cried so much towards you...
Thought let go already but just found out, there is some jealously and also emo pattern that portrait out. On the Saturday, I totally burst out like a sakai in the jungle. Or even may be I think too much, as the previous trip, it just felt that is always just beside me but it felt nothing till at the peck where by someone mention it out than only note that but anyways is already too late to notice about it.
Yes, I have lost another battle. As I'm not as young, pretty, slimmer look, girly girl etc...as a young girl has. Seriously I'm damn lack of confidence and a much slow catcher on this road. Always can't get a guy hints...*ish ish*
Mood is still swinging and also dark cloud above with thunder and rain non stop. After looked the picture, even make me more no idea what i'm thinking or even doing now. I really need to get over it, please act normal, go back as the way you are. Do not be another silly girl like last time, need to be more tough and stop search already!
Sometimes isn't whether I want it a not, to me is a matter how the hell I open to my heart to out and sure fail. Cause each time I did try to open a little, there is always something shuts me off and give a thought that he is not the right want. Sometimes really is not I wanted it to be this way, it just something stopping that all!
You got to be focus and know what you want in life rather than sit here and feeling desperate about it. Okay, you old enough to think wisely about your life.
Thought let go already but just found out, there is some jealously and also emo pattern that portrait out. On the Saturday, I totally burst out like a sakai in the jungle. Or even may be I think too much, as the previous trip, it just felt that is always just beside me but it felt nothing till at the peck where by someone mention it out than only note that but anyways is already too late to notice about it.
Yes, I have lost another battle. As I'm not as young, pretty, slimmer look, girly girl etc...as a young girl has. Seriously I'm damn lack of confidence and a much slow catcher on this road. Always can't get a guy hints...*ish ish*
Mood is still swinging and also dark cloud above with thunder and rain non stop. After looked the picture, even make me more no idea what i'm thinking or even doing now. I really need to get over it, please act normal, go back as the way you are. Do not be another silly girl like last time, need to be more tough and stop search already!
Sometimes isn't whether I want it a not, to me is a matter how the hell I open to my heart to out and sure fail. Cause each time I did try to open a little, there is always something shuts me off and give a thought that he is not the right want. Sometimes really is not I wanted it to be this way, it just something stopping that all!
You got to be focus and know what you want in life rather than sit here and feeling desperate about it. Okay, you old enough to think wisely about your life.
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Stop
It took me quite some time to think what to write about, but it seems a bit hard to write it down.
I could easy smile just even that little things draw your attention,But I just can't help it of thinking you, I can't express in Facebook, twitter or any other social media cause I m too afraid to let people to know my feelings towards you ever since I left college.
I couldn't share out to anyone yet cause this it would be happen to me as you did mention something before which stop me from thinking any further thoughts, after sometime I heard that you have a partner that even make me day even more grey but I just have to accept it cause ;
There is a sentence of saying : " if that is belong to you, it will just come to you, but it doesn't belong to you, no matters how hard you try it will not come to you"
All I need to do now is clear of my mind, relax,chill and get a life in order stop thinking of you.
Girl, I know you can cross over this, just need to be tougher :D
I could easy smile just even that little things draw your attention,But I just can't help it of thinking you, I can't express in Facebook, twitter or any other social media cause I m too afraid to let people to know my feelings towards you ever since I left college.
I couldn't share out to anyone yet cause this it would be happen to me as you did mention something before which stop me from thinking any further thoughts, after sometime I heard that you have a partner that even make me day even more grey but I just have to accept it cause ;
There is a sentence of saying : " if that is belong to you, it will just come to you, but it doesn't belong to you, no matters how hard you try it will not come to you"
All I need to do now is clear of my mind, relax,chill and get a life in order stop thinking of you.
Girl, I know you can cross over this, just need to be tougher :D
Monday, June 11, 2012
sweet start but end bitter
my 3rd and 4th dream is was sweet but....
the 3rd is dream is was like, i get to sit beside him and feel the warm of his body *ps: he is wearing a white shirt :)*... it feel like we are having a chit chat section, very close to each other laugh and giggle the topic that we talk about. But after i turn around like running up and down, as i turn back i saw him was with another girl..totally is heart break issue then i walk off, out from that dream till i woke up and tell myself is my dream telling me stop it and get on with your life without a person beside you... :(
4th is more like to health sport involved in climbing, height and even running. there is a person is guiding me in that sport give me a lot of support to cross pass all those sports but also end up same as the 3rd dream...it disappear in the thin air...i like aiks i think this whole life i won't get a person to stand beside when ever i needed them....hmmm
4th is more like to health sport involved in climbing, height and even running. there is a person is guiding me in that sport give me a lot of support to cross pass all those sports but also end up same as the 3rd dream...it disappear in the thin air...i like aiks i think this whole life i won't get a person to stand beside when ever i needed them....hmmm
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Tired
“This much hates it but can't do anything with it...why!!!...don't keep on telling trying the best to fight the right but end up no action at all...it's been a year and more...i still don't get anything yet and i m tired of all the promises that had been promise...don't tell me that i break first...cause the one that promise never keep it and just make others suffer. I don't want the fame; I just want something that is realistic enough to continue my life”
By the owner who own this blog *wink wink*
This quote is from my Facebook that I have post it few days ago, at that moment I think I just the heat have reach to the maximum. Cause you have promise things that never been kept, sometimes I wish you don’t promise anything and it does make people frustrated about it. I felt that I’m kind of stupid to stay here for so long without any reason, i have few offer but I choose reject it.
WELL, crazy enough to reject it cause it more than my current what I get now…* :’( *
May be the reason I reject is cause the environment that I have adopt and people around me *but definitely not my boss, I’m so sorry to said that but is true and it’s a fact ;P*…People that I mix with is my comfort zone and it blend very well, don’t feel want to lose it. BUT there will always have a better place and better life ahead you which you never when, what and how it happen.
But I just filled in an online application form and submit it to the company. Hopefully I got a call from them to have an interview, never give a try you never know when is success a not but hopefully I love the job cause is more on to the planning event style *which is a dream job, since in diploma *
By the owner who own this blog *wink wink*
This quote is from my Facebook that I have post it few days ago, at that moment I think I just the heat have reach to the maximum. Cause you have promise things that never been kept, sometimes I wish you don’t promise anything and it does make people frustrated about it. I felt that I’m kind of stupid to stay here for so long without any reason, i have few offer but I choose reject it.
WELL, crazy enough to reject it cause it more than my current what I get now…* :’( *
May be the reason I reject is cause the environment that I have adopt and people around me *but definitely not my boss, I’m so sorry to said that but is true and it’s a fact ;P*…People that I mix with is my comfort zone and it blend very well, don’t feel want to lose it. BUT there will always have a better place and better life ahead you which you never when, what and how it happen.
But I just filled in an online application form and submit it to the company. Hopefully I got a call from them to have an interview, never give a try you never know when is success a not but hopefully I love the job cause is more on to the planning event style *which is a dream job, since in diploma *
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Are you afraid to be alone?
Are you afraid to be alone?
This question hit in my mind this morning when one of my colleagues asked me.
Thinking...
Thinking...
Thinking...
Well, can i start like this…
Are you afraid to be alone?
Found out most of my close friends and also colleague are afraid to be alone. But why do you feel it this way? Is it because you already have a habit of people accompany you wherever you go and wherever you do… Some of them feel wired when they are eating, shopping, and movie-ing alone, but to me is just a very normal thing to do in my life or may be even I just used to life like this. No rushing, no argument, no trouble and also no need to wait anyone to make decision in any condition.
Some said I’m strong enough to face most the thing alone,
Some also said I too calm attitude or a bit proud,
Some even said I’m very shy person,
Actually I like to be alone and enjoy the silent life, don’t want to get too much of influence by others, and also get away from the argument with others. People around will make you and yourself get frustrated very easy because not everyone can be easily please or not everyone can please you. When you are alone, you’re thinking also much clearer and you know what you want. I do understand that sometimes you need people to suggestion whether it worth a not but sometimes this also may cause you over budget.
Sometimes is hard to accept to be alone but when times come you just have to face it, no matter how hard is it or how long is takes. Sometimes take it as a challenge, you will never know what is ahead you. But you can prevent it or the mininum the harm to yourself. It's not a harmful thing but is a process for a person to pass through and i believe that I'm the WIRED one cause who love to be alone and never think about get a partner... *lolx*
Red light for today.... :D
This question hit in my mind this morning when one of my colleagues asked me.
Thinking...
Thinking...
Thinking...
Well, can i start like this…
Are you afraid to be alone?
Found out most of my close friends and also colleague are afraid to be alone. But why do you feel it this way? Is it because you already have a habit of people accompany you wherever you go and wherever you do… Some of them feel wired when they are eating, shopping, and movie-ing alone, but to me is just a very normal thing to do in my life or may be even I just used to life like this. No rushing, no argument, no trouble and also no need to wait anyone to make decision in any condition.
Some said I’m strong enough to face most the thing alone,
Some also said I too calm attitude or a bit proud,
Some even said I’m very shy person,
Actually I like to be alone and enjoy the silent life, don’t want to get too much of influence by others, and also get away from the argument with others. People around will make you and yourself get frustrated very easy because not everyone can be easily please or not everyone can please you. When you are alone, you’re thinking also much clearer and you know what you want. I do understand that sometimes you need people to suggestion whether it worth a not but sometimes this also may cause you over budget.
Sometimes is hard to accept to be alone but when times come you just have to face it, no matter how hard is it or how long is takes. Sometimes take it as a challenge, you will never know what is ahead you. But you can prevent it or the mininum the harm to yourself. It's not a harmful thing but is a process for a person to pass through and i believe that I'm the WIRED one cause who love to be alone and never think about get a partner... *lolx*
Red light for today.... :D
Friday, January 20, 2012
you are not my parents nor my elders...
well...well...well...someone is being very busy body wor...always telling people not to do this and that but end up you do everything as you told us not to do. Wah...that is really great bull shit around when you have dateline need to be hand in and telling people how great are you and how mature are you but actually you are not.
Spreading news like no ones knows, you do told us not to spread out people good or bad habits cause it doesn't make you a good person nor god, people haven't complain you doesn't mean you are great cause you do have a lot of weakness in it....i can admit what i did is wrong but doesn't mean you can tell others...oh look what she did what she said is so immature and she needs to grow up cause life is not easy. is kinda bored to listen what she said, ya i know she have more working experience then me, doesn't not mean that she be the boss and step on my head *it does feel hurt le....*.
Actually you do have a lot of bad habits is just i don't want to hurt your small and fragile mind...sometimes you do like to choose fancy place to eat, shop and even wasting my petrol to full fill your leisure end up i m the one who is so damn broke and most of the time you don't even bother give some contribution. Just will said i need to go this and that places and i want to go here and there eat....and once you want me to fetch people to see you as if i'm your driver. wah...look so stupid right, fetch go and back even though is just a short distance, but i still felt a bit wired why do i agree to do so.
When you have hard time in terms on cash, you don't dare to tell others but asking me to help you out....oh oh oh totally forget about it, you are damn choosy person even a minor stuff you also want to said. Even choose a place need to think a lot of elements, till i feel is a bit too much. well i think is enough means enough, don't make it sound so serious cause in the end you will get into the big trouble, just see how it goes. Just don't come and tell me i m sad or emotion time, cause you have many friends to talk about your hard issue and your sad problem cause i m too immature to handle.
well, i think that all i can said about you, do tell true friends will tell you what and when wrong, cause if really true friend, you don't need to talk so much to understand the situation because they will go back and think about it...if you want to them to understand the issue, first you may need to tell what is going on rather then oh you don't understand, so don't act like you know it. Cause even a hardest issue may handle it an easy way rather then the long and hard way. It depends how you see the issue and solve it. So what ever you said to people i can't control but one thing i can control is don't try to change who and what i m now....thank you, good night and good bye.
Spreading news like no ones knows, you do told us not to spread out people good or bad habits cause it doesn't make you a good person nor god, people haven't complain you doesn't mean you are great cause you do have a lot of weakness in it....i can admit what i did is wrong but doesn't mean you can tell others...oh look what she did what she said is so immature and she needs to grow up cause life is not easy. is kinda bored to listen what she said, ya i know she have more working experience then me, doesn't not mean that she be the boss and step on my head *it does feel hurt le....*.
Actually you do have a lot of bad habits is just i don't want to hurt your small and fragile mind...sometimes you do like to choose fancy place to eat, shop and even wasting my petrol to full fill your leisure end up i m the one who is so damn broke and most of the time you don't even bother give some contribution. Just will said i need to go this and that places and i want to go here and there eat....and once you want me to fetch people to see you as if i'm your driver. wah...look so stupid right, fetch go and back even though is just a short distance, but i still felt a bit wired why do i agree to do so.
When you have hard time in terms on cash, you don't dare to tell others but asking me to help you out....oh oh oh totally forget about it, you are damn choosy person even a minor stuff you also want to said. Even choose a place need to think a lot of elements, till i feel is a bit too much. well i think is enough means enough, don't make it sound so serious cause in the end you will get into the big trouble, just see how it goes. Just don't come and tell me i m sad or emotion time, cause you have many friends to talk about your hard issue and your sad problem cause i m too immature to handle.
well, i think that all i can said about you, do tell true friends will tell you what and when wrong, cause if really true friend, you don't need to talk so much to understand the situation because they will go back and think about it...if you want to them to understand the issue, first you may need to tell what is going on rather then oh you don't understand, so don't act like you know it. Cause even a hardest issue may handle it an easy way rather then the long and hard way. It depends how you see the issue and solve it. So what ever you said to people i can't control but one thing i can control is don't try to change who and what i m now....thank you, good night and good bye.
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