sweet start but end bitter

my 3rd and 4th dream is was sweet but....

the 3rd is dream is was like, i get to sit beside him and feel the warm of his body *ps: he is wearing a white shirt :)*... it feel like we are having a chit chat section, very close to each other laugh and giggle the topic that we talk about. But after i turn around like running up and down, as i turn back i saw him was with another girl..totally is heart break issue then i walk off, out from that dream till i woke up and tell myself is my dream telling me stop it and get on with your life without a person beside you... :(


4th is more like to health sport involved in climbing, height and even running. there is a person is guiding me in that sport give me a lot of support to cross pass all those sports but also end up same as the 3rd dream...it disappear in the thin air...i like aiks i think this whole life i won't get a person to stand beside when ever i needed them....hmmm

Tired

“This much hates it but can't do anything with it...why!!!...don't keep on telling trying the best to fight the right but end up no action at all...it's been a year and more...i still don't get anything yet and i m tired of all the promises that had been promise...don't tell me that i break first...cause the one that promise never keep it and just make others suffer. I don't want the fame; I just want something that is realistic enough to continue my life”

By the owner who own this blog *wink wink*


This quote is from my Facebook that I have post it few days ago, at that moment I think I just the heat have reach to the maximum. Cause you have promise things that never been kept, sometimes I wish you don’t promise anything and it does make people frustrated about it. I felt that I’m kind of stupid to stay here for so long without any reason, i have few offer but I choose reject it.


WELL, crazy enough to reject it cause it more than my current what I get now…* :’( *


May be the reason I reject is cause the environment that I have adopt and people around me *but definitely not my boss, I’m so sorry to said that but is true and it’s a fact ;P*…People that I mix with is my comfort zone and it blend very well, don’t feel want to lose it. BUT there will always have a better place and better life ahead you which you never when, what and how it happen.


But I just filled in an online application form and submit it to the company. Hopefully I got a call from them to have an interview, never give a try you never know when is success a not but hopefully I love the job cause is more on to the planning event style *which is a dream job, since in diploma *

Are you afraid to be alone?

Are you afraid to be alone?



This question hit in my mind this morning when one of my colleagues asked me.


Thinking...

Thinking...

Thinking...


Well, can i start like this…



Are you afraid to be alone?

Found out most of my close friends and also colleague are afraid to be alone. But why do you feel it this way? Is it because you already have a habit of people accompany you wherever you go and wherever you do… Some of them feel wired when they are eating, shopping, and movie-ing alone, but to me is just a very normal thing to do in my life or may be even I just used to life like this. No rushing, no argument, no trouble and also no need to wait anyone to make decision in any condition.


Some said I’m strong enough to face most the thing alone,
Some also said I too calm attitude or a bit proud,
Some even said I’m very shy person,


Actually I like to be alone and enjoy the silent life, don’t want to get too much of influence by others, and also get away from the argument with others. People around will make you and yourself get frustrated very easy because not everyone can be easily please or not everyone can please you. When you are alone, you’re thinking also much clearer and you know what you want. I do understand that sometimes you need people to suggestion whether it worth a not but sometimes this also may cause you over budget.


Sometimes is hard to accept to be alone but when times come you just have to face it, no matter how hard is it or how long is takes. Sometimes take it as a challenge, you will never know what is ahead you. But you can  prevent it or the mininum the harm to yourself. It's not a harmful thing but is a process for a person to pass through and i believe that I'm the WIRED one cause who love to be alone and never think about get a partner... *lolx*


Red light for today.... :D

you are not my parents nor my elders...

well...well...well...someone is being very busy body wor...always telling people not to do this and that but end up you do everything as you told us not to do. Wah...that is really great bull shit around when you have dateline need to be hand in and telling people how great are you and how mature are you but actually you are not. 


Spreading news like no ones knows, you do told us not to spread out people good or bad habits cause it doesn't make you a good person nor god, people haven't complain you doesn't mean you are great cause you do have a lot of weakness in it....i can admit what i did is wrong but doesn't mean you can tell others...oh look what she did what she said is so immature and she needs to grow up cause life is not easy. is kinda bored to listen what she said, ya i know she have more working experience then me, doesn't not mean that she be the boss and step on my head *it does feel hurt le....*.


Actually you do have a lot of bad habits is just i don't want to hurt your small and fragile mind...sometimes you do like to choose fancy place to eat, shop and even wasting my petrol to full fill your leisure end up i m the one who is so damn broke and most of the time you don't even bother give some contribution. Just will said i need to go this and that places and i want to go here and there eat....and once you want me to fetch people to see you as if i'm your driver. wah...look so stupid right, fetch go and back even though is just a short distance, but i still felt a bit wired why do i agree to do so.


When you have hard time in terms on cash, you don't dare to tell others but asking me to help you out....oh oh oh totally forget about it, you are damn choosy person even a minor stuff you also want to said. Even choose a place need to think a lot of elements, till i feel is a bit too much. well i think is enough means enough, don't make it sound so serious cause in the end you will get into the big trouble, just see how it goes. Just don't come and tell me i m sad or emotion time, cause you have many friends to talk about your hard issue and your sad problem cause i m too immature to handle. 


well, i think that all i can said about you, do tell true friends will tell you what and when wrong, cause if really true friend, you don't need to talk so much to understand the situation because they will go back and think about it...if you want to them to understand the issue, first you may need to tell what is going on rather then oh you don't understand, so don't act like you know it. Cause even a hardest issue may handle it an easy way rather then the long and hard way. It depends how you see the issue and solve it. So what ever you said to people i can't control but one thing i can control is don't try to change who and what i m now....thank you, good night and good bye.

1st post in year 2012...^^

after such a long break n a trip wif my best budd to wonderful island full of seafood, bikini, boys and beach's...LANGKAWI...and 060112 is my 1st day bac to office lo...hehe but it seems like shit is everywhere, a bit bored of it. 

but i don't feel good at all and plus i have some bad feeling too....i wonder the issue can it settle by tomorrow. i don't want to make a big issue and argue with it le...this project really hang on me like uhu glue man...when can you finish in peace....seriously i don't know who to trust, it really make me confuse de...i reali scare it will make my boss got in scolding coz of my carelessness even though is not my job task but i feel like i wan to settle to...but now after wt my colleague told me what to do...and i did inform my boss at least she know wt happen la....

PRAY HARD IT GOES WELL!!! I DON"T WANT SEE THEM ARGUE!!!