熟悉的回忆

one of the weekdays, i have to go down by myself and buy my lunch since everyone have bought their lunch box to office....

As i walk to the back door and pass by a place, it reminds me someone.where we used to buzz and asked... "Oi, wanna ta bao a not?" and reply "wait ar...give a me a min"....sounds funny...then as i was in the lift...another scenario appear~
as i remember you do stand beside most of the time in the lift, busying typing your message, talk rubbish or sometimes do jump in the lift like a small kid!!!  ta bao that time like keep saying very fat le, can eat vegetable only.... >~<.. i was like what the we girls also haven't say anything but you like a uncle keep ngek ngek non stop...

haha..this memory really make me smile as i after ta bao and go up meet back my colleague in the office and have a good feast with them. This kind of memory will just stick into my mind and also in my blog will not share out to anyone even close friend, you never know when the will terspeak out~ hehe....

承诺...

承诺是什么东西?


承诺是情侣给彼此的一种信任,

还是为了给对方有安全感在爱情里?



曾听过很多情侣互相给对方承诺，是为了维持一段感情还是物质上的需求？有些情侣可以做到，也给到另一伴幸福的日子，但有些情侣就因为这些承诺而闹出分手甚至搞到自杀…值得吗???为了一点小挫折而赔上自己的生命.也许他们把承诺看的太大了, 所以受不到刺激! 我认为是很笨的行为...

其实承诺不一定要立刻实现或是抱着很大希望在未来的日子给你的另一伴...承诺可以从自己给回自己,不一定要人家给才叫幸福...就算是很小很小的承诺都可以让人很快乐啊~

就算办不到也不必灰心,因为我们还有亲人和朋友在身边陪伴...

这是我的看法,那你们觉得怎样?承诺是一切吗?还是只是过云烟的现象?

傻子

可以唯一件事情down很久，内疚很久，

脸上可以笑着，但心里却想静静做我自己东西，
耳里一直播歌，一直一直播个不停。。。重复重复听同样的歌，


像不像一个傻子的作为？

Regretted

i m glad that i can see you again cause is been weeks,so long never meet up. Finally got a time to meet up and some alcohol with soft drink and i never expected that he bought another bottle of vodka cranberry....*thanks for drink ^^* ...so when and book a hotel and start drinking like nobody business...but all of us is really damn tired, lay on the bed almost sleep. so he bising call us wake up wake up don't sleep eh...haha...then he said why don't we have pillow talk...asking some some funny stupid question, la la la all the way through end up i kena shoot ask me this and that, since you ask the same thing i shall use the same question to shoot you back. but i  hide under the pillow cry and almost shout it out... you know what i mean guys... don't you? :]

After sometime , he said a damn breaking news that shock both of us....guess what my heart sank to the bottom of the sea but the face still like who is the lucky guy and it been for 2 years...i like OMG...can't believe it le...why why why...the person that i admire sure got shocking news or some blockage one. T~T...and i really cried before i sleep...well i think you are the second want that can really make me cry for you lo...hmmm....

under the rain

today is a cold night cause rain few times. As usual thing, took an ice cream and straight head to car park with my friends. After out from car park, it rains damn big and thank god there is no jam..happy mood on!

the rain drops hit on my windscreen and it remind someone. it feels funny, each rain drop have diff size and sound. i just don't know why and when i started to love the sound of the rain. sometimes i wonder can i stand under the heavy rain alone. So that, no one will know that whether is that tears or rain drops...hehehe....as i fetch my friends home, i decided to open the window and play with the rain. It feel calm which i can smile easily like a small kid get theirs rewards.

it feel great*for me..hehe*  but along the way i can feel the sadness that my colleague that is go through...i hope she can cross over he line and be happy as she used too.

i cant hold on anymore!

i can't stand people keep adding and asking me to go his or her office to ask some silly and stupid questions!!! each time i want to start and figure out do my stuff  there goes the 'buzz'!!

"mun, can you come in to my office for few min o?"

i cant say no to bosses coz is damn rude to say no to your Superior Then from here and there need to change la... add in la...ltr management voice out tis la tat la....ello~ u think i damn free to keep send the same thing to others!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ello...ppl oso will confuse la...u keep add in things tat actually cant help tat much and it juz make us look 2pid coz the info is kinda the retarded! SERIOUSLY! NO POINT AT ALL!!!MEANINGLESS!!!!!!ahahahaaahahah...feeling wan 2 scream in front of them tell them STOP ALL THE NON SENSE you guys are creating now! had enough of ur concence care and stop ask me think positive coz i dun noe hw long can i stay positive ah...cant hold on la...AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAH help me ar!!!i need some guidence to guide me can ar...

A dream that makes me smile~

Love the dream so much ♥

this is not the first time that i have a such warm dream and it felt so real, cause i can feel 
when he hold my hand, the warm that 2 hands hold together and walk along the busy 

street...where i hope is true...cause i do want a guy hold my hand and when i'm sad there is a person that i can rely on.the dream is really damn sweet till melt my heart.


*that was my second dream.... :) 

now here is my first dream, where i just want to lay in my bed, lazy to get up and do my 

housework. Suddenly i heard a person voice very warm, sweet and calm calling me wake up 
and clean the house, if not later your parents back sure scold you de lo....i just straight away 
got up and start work...*amazing right...*for a lazy person can suddenly pop up and work. 
While i m working on it, in my mind just keep thinking who that guy, how come it keep pop in my dreams.


until now i still don't get to see his face, i just only saw his back and leg. When can i meet 
him in real life cause i don't want you just pop in my dreams only.  but i kinda dislike the ending.


praying hard that is true.... :)

bye bye~

Guess what...he going off tomorrow....and i did even have the guts to said that actually i like you could me give me a chance. *scare of rejection*  may be because he did said what kind of girls that he likes and i don't even have one of the quality that he mention. is this consider a lame reason to stop myself from telling him how i feel towards him.


suddenly it felt like going back to secondary school. *sound silly don't you think*

hmmm..... :'(

坏习惯~

坏习惯？


什么坏习惯呢？


喜欢把自己的心事收藏做成一本痛苦的回忆来折磨自己！
听起来很傻吧？我也觉得蛮傻一下！但是就是偏爱这样对自己。。。
也不懂什么时候变成这样！啊。。。啊。。。啊。。。

有时候很讨厌自己为什么用这种法式来对自己，难道我就不能和朋友说出我的心声吗~
有那么难吗？
还是我不敢说？

:‘（

那一晚~

看着孔明灯，

慢慢升上天空，

感觉好像把愿望送上天，

心里也有一股莫名其妙感觉在心里，

找不到任何的词可形容当时的感觉咧！

*好奇宝宝*

"总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，没有烦恼，像个小孩，

好多人都会羡慕他们，但其实不是这样的..
他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面，
更没有能力一个人独处，因为当夜深人静的时候，
他不知道一个人会发生什么事，坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴..
他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑著去面对，
但事实上他们长著世界上最脆弱的心灵，
只是长期的偽装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤..
他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活著，
期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的，希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。
即使别人小小的意见，也会另他们难过好久，
他们真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜欢。
因为，他们总是为别人想的很多，对别人总是比对自己好；
把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福，喜欢别人比喜欢自己多..
他们总是那样，前一秒还伤心的流著泪，
后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候，已经满脸溢著灿烂的笑容。
有人说她们是向日葵，是的，他们在意的人就像是太阳，
在面对太阳的时候永远是明艷的花瓣，而太阳照不到的背面，
那悲伤藏得那么好，不愿被看见。
他们向往放纵自由的生活，却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活著，

很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。离自己的梦境越来越来远，
不得不面对从未想过的争夺和復杂，恐慌、不知所措..
只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼泪..
因为在他们心里，笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就是喜欢，远离就是讨厌..
但其实不是，他们明白了，心好伤，眼泪就没忍住..
哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可以做的很好的..
他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决，
总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗著笑..
而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，面对自己的悲伤，
他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大..
他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，
肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯，无心的话可能会引起别人的误解..
所以，请别记恨她们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久..
他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑她也会一辈子记得你的好，
因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易受蛊惑 ，
请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，因为一旦伤害了，那就将永远弥补不回来！
一些人，很多时候都疯疯癫癫的，可是心里却是很不开心的..
他们用笑来留著身边的每一个人，
不想把负面情绪影响别人，因为身边的人不开心，他会更伤心…
只要身边的人开心，他也会跟着开心~
即使自己不开心，也希望身边的人可以开开心心的.."


seriously i have been searching this article since march or april~i like the meaning in the article it shows most of them urban human is facing this problem though they might not agree on it but some how is just link to your life without your notice it.
* p/s read it and understand every words that s in the article

now i know why!

一定要時時報備，才是個好情人嗎？這樣的定義非常的不正確吧？


水瓶座的情人往往天生都是處在一種很叛逆的狀態下，特別是男生，好像
到了叛逆期就停止成長，然後就一直留在他們人生的叛逆期中，對於日常
的許多事情總會有很不同的創意看法，在戀愛當中也是這樣，很多人覺得
該要「怎麼做」才會獲得幸福的想法，在水瓶座的心裡頭似乎是一點都不
帶有任何的意義，甚至於會以他們個人的想法去反駁，這也讓很多跟水瓶
座談戀愛的人總是覺得很頭痛，實在是一個跟一般人很不同的「怪咖」。


就以「跟朋友出門」這件事需不需要報備來說，大部份的水瓶座情人大概
都不會覺得需要報備，為什麼談戀愛就一定要換了關係就換了腦袋，「跟
你出門約會我都沒跟我媽報告了」，那麼又為什麼交往之後跟朋友出門
「一定要隨時隨地跟你報告行程不可？」

一部份來說，在談戀愛方面上，水瓶座是走鬆散的自由路線，或該說是對
於「愛情」這件事是抱持著「如果是真愛、自然就會開花結果」的想法，
他們不喜歡被逼得很緊，相對的也給另一半很高的自由度，因為水瓶座深
深覺得，如果是真愛、自然就不會做出對不起另一半的事情，這一點水瓶
座對於自己是很有信心的

水瓶座如果答應交往，就會僅守自己的戀愛原則，偷吃之類的的事情往往
不會發生，這是一種很高的自信，但通常這種自信都會受到非常多的外來
誘惑挑戰，水瓶座失守的機率有時候也不算低，不過在還沒有失守之前，
水瓶座都對自己是超級有信心的。
不要試著用所以「正常戀愛的幸福守則」來要求水瓶座，你只會被他們用
很多歪理(他們覺得是正確觀念)反駁，他們不會想要跟你報備，你逼太緊
還可能讓他們跑掉，跟水瓶座談戀愛當真是要隨緣一點，學習放風箏式的
管理吧！

放下了又怎样

明明就把所有的讯息和消息都删除以及忘掉!

干吗call我啦.....还敢个我问我在office吗？

哇....吓倒我傻掉咯~真的是!

早知道我不听，将我就不用想为什么咯！

ish ish ish ish~

i believe i can!

well the mood is still hang-ing in my mind now! on the way back home, let my mui ngam ngam again !!!haiz...let   her ngam till no mood and she is really pushing me to find someone to stand beside and take care of me. But i just keep thinking that i want it to put aside and leave it there first. 

may be some day  i will meet one,may be it just timing not right?

well, I'm fine with my own life now, it just a bit bored! i will get through it...I believe I can! as long i stay focus and know what i want along my journey, that should be fine...mistake and obstacle is waiting ahead me so i must be strong to cross over them then i can complete my dream!!!

JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU....sa poh JIA YOU!!! ^^

moody mood~

lately moody mood on very frequently.....i really very scary cause of the same issue that i have been through before. I don't want the feeling back and turn my life upside down again!

it doesn't worth at all!

i don't want to get hurt again cause it takes a very long time to recover! 1 of the guys really is killing me cause i took 2 years to forget him but end up i still saw him on 16 of April 11 when i was at my idol concert!!! almost fainted and my tears did came out *hopefully he didn't saw me*...even till now i still miss him*damn it...silly me* because of you i did a lot of silly and craziness during my secondary life!!! i wonder do you notice my silliness when ever i did something stupid in front of you? do you know when ever you pass by i do blush like a red tomato?*i don't think you know that* i don't like others...did very obvious action in front of you cause i don't have the guts and also to speak out that i really like you! i will be girl who always stand aside and look at you, even just for few minute is really does make day during that time. There is one of the time, you scare the hell out of me but thank god you are alright cause i didn't see any injured on you!

Because of you, i cried when you graduate cause i know it would be any easy to see you again! Ever since this incident happen, i tell myself stop drop into to this trap anymore cause is not it worth at all! For the meantime, i just want to a peaceful journey and also

i just knew that my heart is made of glass

i came out a line start like this :-

"you are one in million,
not all girls or guys is not that lucky to found the ONE,
cause is a huge world out there!"

bloody hell friday!!!

i thought 2day is would b a better day coz 2 lovely fren of mine came bac office le*miss them so much* ...went for meeting, did some check list, take care my task and prepare all those last min stuff. Nvr mind, but do u have to yell n shout like nobody business ar.....yes i admit that i m not pretty good in excel but do have to make my life so miserable! do you noe tat*i wonder* ....wif tat kind of salary and a tan of job load tat i need to do wif a pair of hands and legs! Do you think tat i m super gal meh.....wat oso ask me to do le....frm calling to failing, preparing cheque, arrange interview, handle my database wif all reconstruction or wt ever shit i m doing nw, and yet u still give tat kind of face...."muka hitam"....if you think you can find a better person who can take over my place plz do so and run-ing away frm it.....

tis is oso apply to another fellow, did i do anything wrong or sumthing c2pid to u....do u have to use tat kind of black face to look at me ar.....if you think u r better den others plz prove it and nt by typing all those theory in fb le...tis doesn't make u a better person! i m glad tat i found few and make some fren in thr but whn come to work is reali frustrating and tired, is does drag me down!!!

Juz nw i almost wanted to cry le, i juz dun noe y!!!plus tat time old fren of mine name "gastric" came n visit me le....but task is not finish, no matter wt it takes oso muz finish it le!!! but u alwaz tell us " no last min work or anything" but end up u r de 1 who doing it...end up u make stay in thr n do all those paperwork, and u alwaz wan things done done done on time but do u ever let me in my place n finish it...NO!!! u juz call n call for tis n tat which it wasting my time on it oni! Sumtimes i wonder i m support or ur secretary ar....a small matter u oso wan me to do le.....it reali does make me feel like an idiot lo....

I juz hope i can hang in thr,if reali does not make any diff...i shall think of another alternative way de!!!

human do changes...

human is a living thing that very hard to understand, you may guess it but can't confirm it coz it changes rapidly.  Since yesterday i heard both side of stories, both of them said de diff things which i dun noe who to trust...coz A said tis B said tis....sumthings is better not to make it so hard or difficult coz is juz make things more messy and every1 stay away each other. Yes!!!!!!!!!!human do change in terms of attitude and behavior....due to some reason or some incident tat happen between each other....dun blame each other coz of them change to sum1 that v dun noe as b4...may b thy found de place tat thy belong le....shuld b happy for them....not talk behind them!!!! 

从来不曾觉得水瓶奇怪。可这些却又确确实实从别人的嘴里说了出来。




瓶子是属于那种自已没事儿找事儿型的，若觉得十里以内没有什人让自己牵挂就不好玩了。所以在没有真正喜欢一个人之前，常常会到处寻找合适的目标，并且 这时的目标还不止一个。被瓶子猎上的主儿，如果在别人眼里没有什么闪光点，那么他在瓶子眼里可真有特别的地方啊。比如他有一天只是对着大树说了一句：“你 看你长得怎么那么TMD绿啊”，可能就让瓶子产生了兴趣。并且当瓶子飞着吐沫两眼发光地讲此人的“事迹”给你听时，你会说：“你丫地有病 么......”。



瓶子喜欢那种暧昧的感觉。瓶子们有强烈的直觉，他们本能的就知道自己的身影会让谁的心不平静，可他们不说，但也不是假装不知道，他们只是在保持着一种 极为暧昧关系。不近不远，就像他们眼中可能的爱情若即若离。瓶子们喜欢百花丛中过，片叶稍沾身的的感觉。并且这时他们有点分不清倒底喜不喜欢你。但是当你 终于忍不住将你心中的爱恋表达出来后，会有两种结果。如果他不喜欢你，他不太会直接拒绝你，也不会委婉暗示你，他只会说一些稀奇古怪连自己也不懂却觉得很 有理的话，整得大家都莫名其妙，不知发生了什么。然后你就不自然起来，可瓶子只是觉得你有毛病了，不能再陪你玩了，然后就不再和你讲话了，不管你们在此之 前关系多好，只要他不喜欢你，就不会再和你保持以前的关系也不会再和你说话。所以没有把握时千万不要向一个水瓶表白，否则你和他连普通朋友都不是。如果他 也喜欢你，他也不会直接地说，但是可以肯定的是他绝对不会拒绝你，绝对不会不理你。怎样判断瓶子爱不爱你？在你表白之后如果他还会和你说话。也许平时他对 你也许淡淡的，但偶尔他会很深情地和你说点什么。你不要为这是他随口说说，这是真情流露。同样他也会和你说一些稀奇古怪的话，你会觉得他若即若离。这为什 么呢？因为他心理很矛盾。他怕你们一旦越过的朋友的关系还会像以前一样地相互坦白么。在水瓶看来，不管怎么的关系，坦白很重要，但是更重要的是你不要让他 坦白。一旦让他坦白，就好比在日光灯下赤裸裸，瓶子会很没有安全感，你们这段关系也可能就到尽头了。



只要一个瓶子在精神上能对你忠贞，你就赢了他的一生，他想跑都跑不掉了。所以你要是不想认真地开始一段感情就不要试图让瓶子爱上你，因为也许他们的爱 就这样地延了一生一世，如果你不能给瓶子一个未来的保证，他们会很伤心的。对于水瓶来说，一段短途的两情相悦结束比一段长途的暗恋无果带来的伤害及毁灭更 大些。



如果水瓶决定和你在一起了，那就说明你是他这一生都认定的人了。你会很少听到他说我喜欢你我爱你这样的话。至多他在热恋的时候会说句我想你了。他会在 你很不在意的时候说一句我爱你，在你诧异的同时，不会再听到第二遍了，并且瓶子脸上的表情不像是在表白。瓶子会问你许多无厘头让你莫名其妙的问题来让你回 答。你也



许会觉得他无理取闹，可是我敬告你最好认真地回答，因为这些东西对他们来说很重要。如果你答不了，他们会很失望，自然地情绪会低落，会对你产生一些逆 反心理---可你不会知道。瓶子和你在一起会很在意一些小事，你不经意间传过去的一个温柔眼神比送他玫瑰花说口干舌燥的表白要有用的多。他不开心时你说过 的那些话他们一定不会忘。还有，你做不到的事一定不要对瓶子许诺。也许他一时半会儿想不起来，但如果他想起来了你却忘了他会发狠地“埋汰”你。瓶子会主动 放掉自己所爱的人!如果你犯了他们不能原谅的错---虽然在任何人眼里这也许不算是错，可瓶子只在乎一些别人眼里所谓的小事---这也许就是怪？你一定不 要让瓶子失望，他真的会离开你，原因只有一个，就是他爱你。正是因为爱你，才对你一个人要求严格，其它的人，我不在乎。瓶子不喜欢别人考验他。如果水瓶已 经和你在一起，你就不要再忽冷忽热。假如你曾经一天和他说一遍我喜欢你可你突然又改成两天说一遍了他就会在意—其实原本你不用说他都不会在意。



很多时候瓶子将自己表现得与他人无关。他们是需要自由。于是用冷漠来包装，用不羁来掩饰。所以一生也就错过了很多曾经爱过的人，因为那些人根本不知道瓶子的爱，或者，虽然爱着瓶子却仍旧不敢爱。



这是瓶子的悲哀，也是瓶子的骄傲，瓶子的幸福！