Back to drop some ink....
Change a few jobs and end up back to square one.
Previous 2 years and 4 months was the best years that I have work in, though there is some issues and blocks but at least I have make it through. And meet some good people along the way and have make us getting closer more gathering together enjoy the life.
after the dismiss it seems everyone is getting somewhere or any where but me still like an idiot stuck in the same place. Sometimes I wonder should I jump out from the box that I have been in few years, cause it really felt that it can't anywhere further in term of experience and salary wise too.
Is like in the jungle of lions and lionesses whereby everyone want a piece of glory, being in the sandwich pack is hard to survive and please everyone else. Really do miss those days that not much of drama and process in between, restriction really can causes a lot problems!!!
How could I wish time machine is invented, so I can re-choose again...
Monday, November 16, 2015
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
Current situation
Never thought that I have cried so much towards you...
Thought let go already but just found out, there is some jealously and also emo pattern that portrait out. On the Saturday, I totally burst out like a sakai in the jungle. Or even may be I think too much, as the previous trip, it just felt that is always just beside me but it felt nothing till at the peck where by someone mention it out than only note that but anyways is already too late to notice about it.
Yes, I have lost another battle. As I'm not as young, pretty, slimmer look, girly girl etc...as a young girl has. Seriously I'm damn lack of confidence and a much slow catcher on this road. Always can't get a guy hints...*ish ish*
Mood is still swinging and also dark cloud above with thunder and rain non stop. After looked the picture, even make me more no idea what i'm thinking or even doing now. I really need to get over it, please act normal, go back as the way you are. Do not be another silly girl like last time, need to be more tough and stop search already!
Sometimes isn't whether I want it a not, to me is a matter how the hell I open to my heart to out and sure fail. Cause each time I did try to open a little, there is always something shuts me off and give a thought that he is not the right want. Sometimes really is not I wanted it to be this way, it just something stopping that all!
You got to be focus and know what you want in life rather than sit here and feeling desperate about it. Okay, you old enough to think wisely about your life.
Thought let go already but just found out, there is some jealously and also emo pattern that portrait out. On the Saturday, I totally burst out like a sakai in the jungle. Or even may be I think too much, as the previous trip, it just felt that is always just beside me but it felt nothing till at the peck where by someone mention it out than only note that but anyways is already too late to notice about it.
Yes, I have lost another battle. As I'm not as young, pretty, slimmer look, girly girl etc...as a young girl has. Seriously I'm damn lack of confidence and a much slow catcher on this road. Always can't get a guy hints...*ish ish*
Mood is still swinging and also dark cloud above with thunder and rain non stop. After looked the picture, even make me more no idea what i'm thinking or even doing now. I really need to get over it, please act normal, go back as the way you are. Do not be another silly girl like last time, need to be more tough and stop search already!
Sometimes isn't whether I want it a not, to me is a matter how the hell I open to my heart to out and sure fail. Cause each time I did try to open a little, there is always something shuts me off and give a thought that he is not the right want. Sometimes really is not I wanted it to be this way, it just something stopping that all!
You got to be focus and know what you want in life rather than sit here and feeling desperate about it. Okay, you old enough to think wisely about your life.
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