Never thought that I have cried so much towards you...
Thought let go already but just found out, there is some jealously and also emo pattern that portrait out. On the Saturday, I totally burst out like a sakai in the jungle. Or even may be I think too much, as the previous trip, it just felt that is always just beside me but it felt nothing till at the peck where by someone mention it out than only note that but anyways is already too late to notice about it.
Yes, I have lost another battle. As I'm not as young, pretty, slimmer look, girly girl etc...as a young girl has. Seriously I'm damn lack of confidence and a much slow catcher on this road. Always can't get a guy hints...*ish ish*
Mood is still swinging and also dark cloud above with thunder and rain non stop. After looked the picture, even make me more no idea what i'm thinking or even doing now. I really need to get over it, please act normal, go back as the way you are. Do not be another silly girl like last time, need to be more tough and stop search already!
Sometimes isn't whether I want it a not, to me is a matter how the hell I open to my heart to out and sure fail. Cause each time I did try to open a little, there is always something shuts me off and give a thought that he is not the right want. Sometimes really is not I wanted it to be this way, it just something stopping that all!
You got to be focus and know what you want in life rather than sit here and feeling desperate about it. Okay, you old enough to think wisely about your life.
